4 days in

So not been blogging much as really there isn't much to say. Diet is going ok. Still need to do my big grocery shop and get some 'diet friendly' food in. As of now I'm just muddling my way through. I'm not eating choc. Well the odd nibble of my daughters chocolate buttons but in the grand scheme of things I'm not really eating anything bad. Yes its killing me but I'm doing it. Saying that I'm eating meals just not the crap in between.

Jet lag has about gone so hoping to do some walking this week. Weather is meant to be fantastic this week. The dog isn't going to know whats hit him.

Weigh in on Wed. Wish me luck :-)

The first day of forever :-(

So the first day didn't go as well as I'd have liked but not as bad as it could I suppose. I have a saying "don't start a diet when you are menstrual'. So I did that. Great timing. I have 'menstrual munchies' like there is not tomorrow. Honestly I sat on the couch at one point tempted to gnaw my arm down the elbow. Its not funny. I didn't do badly during the day but had a cheese craving in the evening. I ended up having cheese and crackers for dinner. Now truthfully I have never given up cheese when I'm on a diet. I justify it by saying that I either need my protein or that it would make me more miserable. I don't give up cheese or a Friday night curry. Its plain and simple.

So I weighed myself. Will post a picture when I find out how easy it is to do it. 186lb. My joint highest. I'm 5ft 1". Not a pretty sight at the moment. I'll add pics to show that too :-)

The Eve before Depression Sets in :-)

So the diet starts tomorrow. Saw the last day of gluttony out with a nice twix. Went out for lunch with some friends and refrained from having a pudding. Never thought the day would come. No idea what I'll eat tomorrow while on my diet as I've yet to go shopping since getting back from my trek to Blighty so should start planning that really :-)

My exercise plan is to walk my dog ragged really. He needs the exercise and so do I. He won't know what will hit him, scary as I bet he is fitter than me by a long shot :-)

So I will report back with some nice pictures showing how tough my life is and how miserable I become when I don't have a nice chockie bar to eat in the evening.

Ohhhh not so good :-(

So I didn't post yesterday as I was completely knackered. Some friends invited us over for a bbq which was lovely and hubby cooked dinner. Was very happy. Takes me a bit to overcome jet lagg. So this morning I got up and saw the scales under the bathroom counter. I paused and wondered whether I should or not as my actual diet start is Wed. Anyway, I did. BLOODY HELL. I'm currently a pound more than my heaviest ever. Bugger. Told hubby that maybe I should start diet today. He is all for it as my snoring is sooo bad. Just waiting for the sleep apnea to start. Usually does when I put on weight. Thing is, and this sounds like the biggest load of crap ever, I'm psychologically set up for starting on Wednesday. Yes it sounds weird but today is a holiday here in the US and tomorrow is my daughters last day before she goes back to school. On Wed its just me and the dog. I'm not responsible for my daughters lunch and snacks throughout the day. So I think it will have to wait till Wed and I'll just have to be 'goodish' or I can just make the most of my last 2 days of gluttony. Hmmm tough choice :-)

Travelling

Travelled home today. Can't write too much as I'm shattered but my day consisted of eating soooo much that I look like I'm about to pop. So all in all a great day :-)

Not a great day

So I've felt pretty crappy all day. No brekkie but did remember that there was a Cadbury's chocolate bar that I really used to love. After an extensive search on the net we found out that it was called a boost. So had to go out and find them. Did eat one and loved every second. Hubby sent me to buy 5 packs of Double Dekkers. He is now a very happy boy.

We went to a nice restaurant for lunch and had a yummy steak and ale pie. Had to share it with my daughter. None of us feeling too great. For dinner my sister bought us a nice Chinese takeaway. It was delicious. Surprising that you can feel so crappy and ill and yet have a good appetite. I'm a believer that its in the genes. I'm from a family of really good eaters. Not a skinny boned sibling in the pack :-) I know a couple of my sisters are going to kill me for that. Sure they wouldn't argue that its a constant battle. One that I'm losing constantly.

So tomorrow I'm at the airport and then on a plane back to the US. My daughter goes back to school on Wed so I'm going to enjoy the weekend and make the most of not cutting out carbs and fat etc. Life is about to get really boring. I'm a real miserable cow when I'm on a diet. Love sitting in front of the telly with a nice bar of Cadbury's. Oh well. I'll just think of all the fat just oozing off of my bum and hips while I munch on carrots :-)

Nothing like a bit of a tummy bug.

Nothing much to report. Felt crappy all day and then threw up anything that I'd eaten. Not my chosen way of weight loss. Made up for it with a nice bit of cottage pie and a bar of chockie.

Last day in England tomorrow. Will leave in style with a nice Chicken Tikka Masala. Hubby going off to buy a huge box of Double Decker chockie bars. He's on a diet so he can't eat any but he said that maybe he will have one a week as a treat. Yeah right :-) Know damn well that we will buy a bucket load of chockie at Heathrow. We usually do :-)

Nothing else to report.

9 months pregnant.

No not really just doing a really good impression of it at the moment. Don't think I was this big even when I was expecting. Was good at not having brekkie today but did have a pot noodle for lunch. Haven't had one for 8 years so thought I'd indulge. Wasn't as good as I remember. I went to a friends for a mini school reunion and ate waaaayyy toooo much. Not good. Had pizza and a nice bit of garlic bread for dinner. The problem arose when my daughter got back from a trip to France and Belgium with her nan. Of course she brought me back some nice Belgium chockies. Good job the diet hasn't started so I could have a couple or three before bed.

Holiday is coming to an end. So must my indulgence. I'm planning on taking my dog for the mother of all walks on Wednesday. Keep thinking about getting a pedometer but honestly keep wondering what you do with the amounts once you know them. Would rather just know that I've done some exercise. Its going to be a slow start as I'm well lardy right now. Hope the dog has the strength to pull me home :-)

.....and continues

So today was a bad day on the 'getting ready for diet' preparation. It started with a nice couple of bacon sarnies at lunchtime. Blooooody luvly. No guilt with that one. Then had a nice twix in the afternoon and a luvly ruby murry for dinner (curry). Even when I'm on a diet I never go without my Thur or Fri ritual of a nice Chicken Tikka Masala. Just has to be done really. If I didn't have that then I'd be a right miserable cow. Not that I am usually :-)

Hubby wants to stack up on Double Decker chocolate bars to take back. I agree that we should but don't think it will help the diet much. I've informed him that he is going on a diet with me and that my daughter is on a healthy kick when she is home. She is resisting this but we will see. She starts 1st grade when we go back and will be eating lunch at school. I have no control what she eats although I can stop her buying cookies and candy. That will please her :-)

I think this blog will get a bit boring until I actually get on the diet. Then it will be me moaning and whinging. I hate diets. I don't drink or smoke or do drugs so why not eat what I want. Well mainly because I'm 5ft 1' and a right porker right now. There is no justice in this world. Honest.

So if you fine this boring then sorry. When I come on here crying on Wed with a nice picture of the scales you might find it more entertaining. Well if you are masochistic that is :-)

and the binge continues.

The day started off well. I went to a boot fair with my daughter and felt that I'd be a mean mum if I didn't participate in having an ice cream with her. I came home and knocked up a sausage sandwich. Not keen on the sausages in the US so it would be wasteful not to sample them while home. It was delicious. Its funny that once I decide that I'm going on a diet I stop feeling guilty about what I'm eating. We went off to the beach and ate crisps and sausage rolls and loads of soda. This evening we had KFC. Now I have to say that KFC in the US is very different to that of the UK. Lets just say that the KFC here in England is bloody lovely. When we go home we just don't eat it at all.

So here I am eating like I only have a week to live. Possible as I'm sure my arteries are well clogged right now. Still have to make the most of this English food.

About Fat Mellie

Ok, I'm Mellie, 36 years old and getting fatter by the minute. I'm English and live in New Jersey USA. Despite the fact that people think all Americans are obese this isn't exactly true for all Americans. I live in the North East where people are very 'self conscious'. They are all (well a lot) very slim, go to the gym at least 3 times a week and eat very small healthy portions when they go to lunch. Afraid I'm not programmed that way. I eat what I want and count my exercise as walking the dog down the end of the road to take my daughter to the school bus. I need help.

I'm currently in England staying with family for 2 weeks. I'm reveling in English food. I miss fish and chips and decent curry so much. Roast dinner and bacon butties galore. I'm out of control. I'm too scared to weigh myself and even if I wanted to they have gone all metric since I left and I've no idea how many kilo's I'm supposed to be. This is a good excuse not to go near them.

So Wednesday 9th of September I am to start my diet. I will be back home in the US, hubby at work and daughter at school. I intend to take it easy to start with. Mostly because I'm a lazy cow and have to build myself up to it :-) I'm going to take the dog for a nice long walk and make a tabbouleh. Like I said start slowly. I also intend to stand on the scales, even take a picture of them and keep any sad sods who want to follow my blog updated with my progress. I would like to lose at least 40lbs but we will see. Probably need to lose 50 if the truth be told. So feel free to encourage me or give me some grief. Every little helps.

So thats me. I'm fighting an hereditory obesity gene and age but I will go down fighting.

Cheers